Looking into the eyes of the nothing.

The light of life
Is flickering dim.
Blinded eyes
to a bitter end.

Receding inside,
A lonely descent.
Conceding my time
to growing intent.

A lifetime collides
With a desperate escape.
The timeless divide
Holds a decided fate.

time

Back when time was on my side,
when the world was mine and open wide,
I was running after and never far behind,
the dreams I chased... when time was mine.

Now these days that pass me by,
fade to years of wasted time.
How far I strayed from the pious line, alone and lost within my mind.

Too tired to think
Too tired to write
Too tired to blink
Too tired to fight

Too tired to fake
Too tired to bear
Too tired to wake
Too tired to care


Too tired to feel
Too tired to give
Too tired to deal
Too tired to live

Am I Sane?

Still up - early morning
Line is cut- Ignore the warnings
An empty room and isolation
Strange noises and perspiraton.
I'm being watched- A second presence
Wandering lost seems a life sentence.
Shadows are streaking,
Paranoia is creeping
Into a heart that's receding
inside a soul that's bleeding.
Scared, confused and self abused
Am I prepared to lose
this life I misused.

Either way I lose

No remorse in her darkened heart,
while mine was raped and ripped apart.


But deep inside, a sorrow befalls
She weeps and hides behind hollow walls.

Undenying

The lying one
The spying some
The prying stun
The crying shun
The trying done
The flying gun
The dying son
The dying done for
The lying tongue of
The denying one.

Don't Blink

I just watched my life end.
Expecting something beautiful to begin,
I fashioned by hand the means to an end.
I'm burning all my bridges.
my fate is subsiding by inches.
Shall I continue to wait for what will  never be?
There's no other way, there's no other for me.

Ya'll

-You're all the same.
What a shame.
Who's to blame?
Society's game.
Washed the brain.
You fuck for fame
The hollow faces,
bound by chains.
It's growing profane,
I'm going insane.
You're all the same.

20/20

-I know who you are. I feign blindness but I see you so clearly.
It's what I want to be true, not what I know to be fact that keeps me coming back.

World I See

Through this strife I struggle,
Through this life I stumble.

Taking the right steps in the wrong direction,
making losing bets wins life-long dejection.

I've withdrawn into isolation,
I've undergone a transformation.

Miles apart from the lying kind,
a dying heart spawns a prying mind

That's It

Never really learned any useful life lessons
Always getting burned and fighting off depression
Altogether unconcerned, and that's inviting indiscretion
Being one who's spurned is a crutch for self-supression

Sever the closest ties and rely on my addiction
White powder highs to pacify my affliction
Look into my eyes before decrying my position
All the lies you swore and denied through omission
gave rise to our war and my self-death prescription.

Those Eyes

Your eyes, your eyes
and all that implies.
You have eyes that mesmerize,
You have lies they compromise
Your feeble tries and the fake surprise
and dry eye cries will not disguise
Nor will they hide what lies behind,
and what dies inside those lying eyes.

Lost

Watching hopelessly,
A life careening.
Veering helplessly,
While I'm dreaming.
Living selfishly,
without a meaning.
Lost in time
and lost in a place,
a million miles away
from the worlds embrace.

In the mirror

Drowning in the fountain of lies denied by the human breed,
Announcing through commercial eyes blind and delusional greed.

Doubts and fears keep you restrained to a self serving reality
Counting the years spent bleakly in chains awaiting the finality.

Rolling off the assembly line like brainless cardboard cut-outs
Wandering lost in space and time, imprisoned by self doubts.

Trained and taught to be somebody your not
You strained and sought to be nobody, you're caught

I see your eyes,
right through your lies
You can't disguise
what your heart belies.